F.R.U.S.T.R.A.T.I.O.N.

I am coming up on ending my 4th year with the company I work for an truly, wholly despise.  I just got yet another "Thanks, but no thanks." email from a promising job I interviewed for.  My heart is breaking and my soul is dying the longer I am stuck where I am.  I haven't had a real vacation in nearly 3 years, my student loan debt has increase because of accumulating interest because I can't afford to pay them and my spirit is dying a slow and painful death.  

I don't expect things to be handed to me but I would like to have something positive happen to me occasionally. I am tired, overworked, underpaid and under appreciated.  I do realize that I am not alone and this makes me even sadder because we have a generation that is living below the standards set by the previous generation and the motto of hard work paying off no longer rings true.  Hard work just helps you keep your head above water, just barely, and each and every day is struggle against insurmountable obstacles.  

While I could go on a political tirade placing the blame for the current economic situation on our country/world, I will abstain as I don't want o get even more upset than I already am.  

I know that I will keep trying but how much more can I take before I just give up and resign myself to a mediocre existence in a job I am good at but for people I abhor.  I don;t want to give up the fight but how much more can one person take?